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2009-10-06T22:26:00.011+08:00

This is why i love Farhan alot,

Him : Where got guy meet girl on hari raya night.
Him : crazy people only do that!
Me : thats love, hehe, i love you!

Him : you see how much i love you.
Me : huh?

Him : i come back from Hong Kong and i drive all the way to your house ok!
Him : only to argue with you
Me : sorry pms :(
Him : forever lah.
Me : i is love you alot thats why i is always angry.
Him : ya love habis!
Me : of cos!

Him : i wanted to call you the moment i touched down, but my phone was dead.
Him : so i got home and straight away called you.
Me : thats love!

Him : you never appreciate me.
Me : says who!
Him : appreciate habis.
Me : i never ask you to meet me what, i always want you to rest.
Him : see see, where got appreciate.
Me : hehehe okay sorry, i luff luff you.

Sorry baby, i will always love you no matter what.
I appreciate everything you have done for me.
Appreciate you driving from woodlands to siglap almost everyday to see me.
I love you so much.

2009-09-22T20:04:00.003+08:00

R.I.P

i've known shameer for less than a year and i'll remember him for the rest of my life.

i'll always remember the times where farid would come to school and we would sit in the canteen together and you would sit infront of me.

i'll always remember the times where you, me and farid would buy food during recess and we'll argue about the chicken and the amount of nuggets we have.

i'll always remember the laughter you'd give when farid and me argue.

i'll always remember the talks we had in malay class.

i'll miss you, the quiet boy who would smile when i winked at him.

i'll always remember your smile.

i'll miss everything about you boy.

rest in peace.

my heart goes out to your family.

love you shameer :)

much love;

2009-09-12T17:46:00.003+08:00

Because we're both egoistic and revengeful that sometimes things just go out of hand.
But whatever it is, i still love you unconditionally.

Basically, we fight every day, yes every single day.
But these constant arguments, make me love him so much.

Imagine this, on the very same day he came back from Hong Kong, he drove to my place just to see me ( i love you honey) and for the first 10 minutes, we would be infinite and then i say something dumb and he flares up and gives that face and we argue in the car and he sends me home :(

So anyway, we were fighting because i was being bitchy and so he decided to become a bitch and me being me, i told him to just go stop texting me because i was pissed.

Me : whats wrong with you ah.
Ahn : me?
Ahn : ohh nothing
Ahn : just understanding your sarcasm.
Ahn : thats all :)
Me : ya okay me, im the crazy one.
Ahn : I didnt know i was perfect.
Ahn : you talking from experience is it? takes one to know one.
Ahn : penat and malas?
Ahn : Oh well.
Ahn : i dont wish to use your own words against you.
Ahn : but yeah bet you know what im gonna say right babe?
Ahn : hahaha
Ahn : was talking to you so nicely.
Ahn : since you say you dont wanna text anymore and all
Me : im really irritated with you.
Me : really.
Ahn : i will respect your decision.
Ahn : why?
Me : first you said you wanna go.
Ahn : cause im ''perfect''?
Me : FARHAN!
Me : listen to me can!
Ahn : or is it because im the few that can understand your sarcasm?
Ahn : tell me.
Ahn : what?
Ahn : come on!
Ahn : surprise me.
Me : you make me all confuse.
Me : why are you being so sarcastic?
Ahn : ME?
Ahn : SARCASTIC?
Ahn : noooooooooooooooooo.
Me : okay fine, im the sarcastic one.
Me : i am okay.
Ahn : Im just playing your games by your rules.
Ahn : dont blame me alright darling?
Me : see you always want to balas balik
Me : i hate it ok!
Ahn : hate what?
Ahn : that what you do have consequences?
Me : yelah yelah.
Ahn : oh come on.
Ahn : Im sure you can do better than that.
Ahn : i didnt start this.
Ahn : i was talking to you nicely.
Ahn : you blew your top.
Ahn : god knows why.
Ahn : what was it again?
Ahn : about me leaving.
Ahn : yaaa.
Ahn : im leaving.
Ahn : so?
Me : the way you text is to urgh.
Ahn: that gives you the right to blow your top when you have the chance?
Me : no, im sorry.
Ahn : The way i text? why?
Ahn : whats wrong with that?
Ahn : You tried reading what you send me a few days ago?
Me : the way you text is so -.-, got really irritated.
Ahn : maybe you will get the idea alright missy.
Me : the way you say k nvm, go do whatever you're doing.
Ahn : yaaaa
Ahn : so?
Ahn : you were talking to your friend.
Ahn : and i dont wish to disturb.
Ahn : whats wrong witht that.
Me : i said you werent disturbing.
Ahn : being the ever so polite that you are.
Ahn : im sure i am.
Me : farhan, i dont wanna argue.
Ahn : then dont start.
Me : okay, its never gonna happen anymore.
Ahn : oh nooo.
Ahn : of course its gonna happen again.
Me : no, its not.
Ahn : im sure of it :)
Ahn : anything i say remember?
Me : it wont.
Me : i will never ever talk to you anymore after today.
Me : i dont want to argue with you anymore.
Me : i dont.
Ahn : then dont start.
Me : okay im not.
Ahn : texting you nicely tau.
Me : so just end it here.
Ahn : you got angry.
Ahn : end it here? yaaa sure.
Me : im not angry.
Ahn : of course.
Ahn : even a retard could figure it out really.
Ahn : whats wrong with you?
Me : WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM REALLY.
Ahn : err
Ahn : ok
Me : ENOUGH LAH, ENOUGH OKAY!
Me : i know im the one who started it all.
Ahn : i have no problem.
Ahn : oh nooooo.
Me : i know im the one that has attitude problem.
Ahn : you're perfect.
Ahn : im the one who started this
Ahn : me me and me.
Ahn : oh wait.
Ahn : wasnt i the perfect one?
Me : im the one thats always in a bad mood.
Ahn : oh takde lah
Ahn : you're always happy happy and happy.
Ahn : ever so happy.
Me : FUCKING STOP BEING SARCASTIC WILL YOU.
Ahn : so happy you make happy embarass
Me : YOU RESEMBLE SOMEONE IM STARTING TO HATE, REALLY
Ahn : sooo?
Ahn : back to the comparing circle huh?
Me : Oh well.
Ahn : wait.
Ahn : girls i have dated
Ahn : err nevermind.
Me : they never compare.
Me : they are the best
Me : they arent like me.
Ahn : wow thanks, been awhile since someone told me that.
Me : they treat you all nice.
Ahn : geez, dont remind me please.
Me : im the most tempremental one ever.
Me : i will just shut up.
Me : now say whatever you want.
Ahn : oh god why?
Ahn : in a conversation
Ahn : both party need to converse.
Ahn : its only fair.
Me : ya okay.
Ahn : its weird when your dp is smiling and im imagining you killing me.
Me : hahahahahah shut up lah.
Me : im so angry with you.
Ahn : shutting up like you told me to.
Me : im sorry.
Ahn : im sorry too.

The only person who came make me laugh when im angry ^.^
He called me up after we fought online and things are much better now.
I love you paki boy, xoxo.

2009-09-09T14:36:00.003+08:00

yes, thats my sister.

not kidding.

to my beloved sister, nazirah aziz,

HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY.

those quarrels we always have, its temporary.

i love you no matter what.

eventhough you're a mother now, you will always remain as my bestfriend.

someone i look up to and someone i will always treasure.

i only have one sister in this whole wide world and thats you.

i love you baby.

and i know you love your baby sister too.

xoxo.

much love;

2009-09-09T14:15:00.004+08:00

KYLE RAFAEL MERNONE.

my sister gave birth on the 2nd of September 2009.

so you count how many days old is kyle.

he's so tiny and i have yet to carry him.

when my sister gave birth, i asked my mum ''mother, i wanna carry him''.

then she gave me the who are you kidding look.

he was only a day old then.

so nevermind.

when you're a week old, i'll carry you.

and then when you're a little bit older, around 9 months old, i will let you eat all the junk food like how im feeding your big brother.

hehe.

much love;

2009-09-07T22:02:00.005+08:00

N levels started today.

with bahasa melayu being the first paper.

ya allah tuhanku, maha susah.

i seriously think that last year's n level paper was easier, i got a B4 last year.

not bad for someone like me actually.

however, i hope to get a B3 or an A2 this year.

lets just wait till 18 december :)

i wrote question number 4 for karangan.

which was:

''warga singapura tidak mengamalkan gaya hidup sihat...''

i chose that question because i really couldnt do any of the other question and because if i do question number 4, its by ''experience''.

i wrote a couple of words in english for example Health Promotion Board cause i have no idea what it means in malay.

i hope i wont be pinalised.

and i think that paper 2 was tough.

the comprehension section, at the end, there's the ''berikan makna''.

1) lucu

2) kemesraan

3) meluap-luap

HAAAAAAAAAAAAA, IMAGINE MY REACTION WHEN I SAW ALL THAT!

but nevertheless, i think i did pretty well.

im screwed for social studies tomorrow.

gonna sleep and wake up at 3 am to study.

shall put what fad told me to use.

''dimulakan dengan bismillah dan disudahi dengan alhamdullilah''.

hurr hurr.

much love;

2009-08-31T22:10:00.004+08:00

rohaizad is the best guy friend ever!

he gives me food discount and on top of that, he gives me extra baked rice and extra chicken and extra mozarella, delicious!
but i was kinda scared to tell him what i ordered cause who knows he put weird stuff inside!

HAHAHAHHHAHA BUT I LOVE HIM FOR MAKING ME FAT!

and izad i hate you, cause everyone thought i was chinese until you came up to me and spoke in bahasa melayu -.-

CHEEEEE LAH YOU!

i need to chiong SS.

ms irda : ''where you going after this?''

me : ''going to study with finella''

ms irda smirks.

and mr angulia who's behind me laughs!

I STUDY LAH! DONT UNDER ESTIMATE ME LAH!

hurr hurr.

i went to geylang with dessy and finella.

SINGAPORE VERY HOT!

and the bazaar was super boring.

every year getting boring.

and im very annoyed with the shoe shop at our secret place.

I BADLY WANT THAT BEADED SANDALS!

its fucking 22 bucks okay, damn cheap!

but no size.

but its okay, i'll drop by again and see if there's any nice new arrival :)

i dont think im fat!

okay bye.

i want to eat the keropok me and finella bought just now!

and HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!

thank you ms sharifah. ms liyana, ms irda, mr angulia, mr shah, mrs lena tiu, mr zaldy, ms ong, mr syazwan, mr tock.

i owe you teachers cupcake, after fasting month ah!

now must study for your subjects, so i can get straight As.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

much love;

2009-08-18T21:58:00.003+08:00

hello.

i know you miss me, you know i miss you -.-

okay shut up, im very busy at the moment.

with n's just around the corner, i have no time to fool around.

no, im serious.

i need to get:

A1/A2 for english.

A2/B3 for bahasa melayu.

A1/A2 for art.

B3 for mathematics/science/humanities.

i have to get that baybeh :)

i hope i can do my momma and baba proud this time round.

okay that all.

only that i've been eating out alot lately.

and i just got back from eating arnold's with finella.

finella wants me to lose weight HAHA.

but when we went to fairprice, she asked me to get a big bottle of winter melon.

HOW TO LOSE WEIGHT LIKE THAT!

and next week im gonna break fast with hazwan and finella, you also puasa okay.

then we can go and eat at naked fish shoppe
YUMMEHHHHHHH :)

and i miss rina/wan/chris/rae alot.

all the five of us are busy with school.

basically, i have quite a number of things to get done:

1) STUDY

2) lose weight

3) shopping

4) get my hair done

5) meet up with the takets.

6) play netball

7) draw fad's tee shirt when im done with school

8)attend my cupcake and cake sculpture course

9) sleep

10) get a new boyfriend.

finella's line: F ml.

okay bye.

much love;

2009-07-28T18:43:00.005+08:00

i love it when ethan's at my house.

at least i can have some peace.

my mother wont be screaming at the top of her voice.

i get really annoyed when my mother disturbs me when im doing my stuff.

when ethan's here, she cannot scold me.

cause if she does, obviously ethan will follow her.

anyway, Ethan's very good looking right?

hurr hurr.

even when he cries, he looks yummeh.

need i say more?

just so you know, good looks run in the family.

feel like stepping on my face?

much love;

2009-07-26T12:55:00.004+08:00

i have ten things to do with fadhilah ain, but i havent got the time.

im really ultra sorry fadhilah ain.

and darn, you're starting work on monday, that means i wont get to see you anytime soon.

nevermind, please make yourself free on saturday.

wait wait, do nurses work on saturday?

anyway, i had alot of fun webcaming with fadhilah ain.

i know damn sick for a girl to webcam another girl, but ain wanted to show me her perm-ed hair.

okaylah, its not that bad, makes your face look big though :/

then while webcaming with ain, fad came home and he joined ain in the webcam session.

which made me more ''ecstatic'' -.-

ain, what you said about mr paramedic, i wanna say it to your brother.

hurr NOT.

then fad decided to open his top and so i texted fad.

and he told ain he cant reply to my message.

tsk, ain's not supposed to know that im messaging fad.

but well, ain knows about it already.

okaylah, i love fadhilah ain's family except for her first brother.

her mom, dad, atin and especially fad are nice.

stupid idiot, he should die die die die die.

i will always remember what he said to fad while i was at their place.

asshole, eventhough he didnt say it to me, he's talking about me, so im not happy at all.

and i try my best to give him the ''chibai, go and eat shit'' look.

HURRRRR, HATE YOUR BIG BROTHER!

please go and die.

basically, i miss fadhilah ain alot.

thanks gre for making us friend.

hurr hurr.

much love;

2009-07-23T22:05:00.006+08:00

kuno becker
mark sinclair.
danny way
ryan guettler

bruno passos

ryan sheckler

chad kagy

jake brown.

top eight men i wanna marry.

(not in sequence).
HAHA.

and i miss out:

-TRAVIS PASTRANA

-KYLE LOZA

i was watching classic X with my mother yesterday night.

and i was watching danny way and my mother said this ''handsome lah this guy''.

hurr hurr, and true enough, danny way is not that young but he's ooh la la hot.

very hot very hot.

i always tell syed to go and drink protein shake so that he can become more buff.

but he doesnt want to, he's always telling me ''natural''.
nonsense right.

and if you're wondering why there's a ''becker'' in my name, its because of hot mexican boy, kuno becker.
there's something in kuno that makes me so 'ahhhhhh' everytime i see his face.

hurr hurrr.

much love;

2009-07-20T19:07:00.005+08:00

farid's brother just called my phone.

and farid's brother voice nice eh!

farid brother : ''hi, i got a miss call from your number''.

me : ''errr, who are you?
farid brother : ''im raihan, you?''

me : ''im naf''

farid brother : ''err haha where did you get my number from?''

me : ''errrrm errrm i didnt call you''

farid brother : ''but i got a miss call from you''

and something struck me.

me : ''OH OH OH, HAHHAHA, FARID'S BROTHER HUH?''

farid brother : ''oh hahahaha yes i am, you're his schoolmate?''

me : ''hahahha yes, i am i am. hehe''

farid brother ''oh, i thought who''.

me : '' hahhaha, sorry sorry, errm okay bye''.

farid brother : ''ahhahahaha bye bye''.

it was a good two minute

but seriously, his voice is nice.

he's raihan leftool -.-

older brother has talent, younger brother so lazy like babiz.

much love;

2009-07-20T17:41:00.004+08:00

okay so, this is the story of the KFC deliveryman.

we ordered KFC around 7 cause my sister was hungry and we wanted to watch harry potter.

and the person said that it'll approximately arrive at 8.30 pm

so we waited and waited until 8.45 and my sister was already so pissed off.

so she called them and she asked the manager what time will they be arriving.and he said that the rider's on the way.so when the driver honked at my house, my sister went out to pay.and i followed her.

and when we came out, the rider handed us only one bloody plastic.

in my heart, i was like ''twelve chicken and six side orders, in one small pastic?''i didnt say it aloud.

my sister : is this all, and its $39.95?

rider : yes, this is all.

so we checked and to our dismay, it was only the side orders.

duh, my sister was angry.

so she asked the rider to give her the manager's number and my sister talked to the manager.

and they came fifteen minutes later to deliver all the chicken.

imagine how hungry i was by then.

kanasai, so not on time and on task.

but nevermind, the rider is good looking, so its okay.

he made up for it with his good looks.

tapi aku tetap marah kerana aku tidak suka apabila makanan aku dihidangkan lambat.

much love;

2009-07-20T16:52:00.003+08:00

ohmygod, remember that crazy guy i told you about.

the ''policeman'' who takes number 2?

remember remember?

let me tell you something, fa'iqah also got disturbed by him last week.

aku ingat dia sudah mati, rupa rupanya, dia masih hidup.

he did what he did to me to fa'iqah.

psycho freak.

fa'iqah double checked with me and yes, its him.

because:

- he wears dark blue pants.

- he is super tall

- he takes number 2.

and as far as i've known, he always boards bus number 2 and he's always wearing blue pants.

so must be him right.

ohmygod, psycho psycho.

I REALLY AM FREAKED OUT BY HIM.

and i try my best to avoid taking number 2 because of him.

i had my english oral just now, it wasn't that bad.

i think i did okay.

the examiner wearing orange top is friendly.

whereas the one wearing black is so -__________-

farid sent me home.

and once again, i cannot stand the pakcik, i mean he's nice, but when im around farid, he can get really irritating.

cause i was wearing the helmet and the pakcik was like ''wah wah chey''.

i was like ''pakcik, kawan je lah, ya allah''.

and mind you, farid's not a good rider.

and also cause i dont have a sense of direction.

you see, that fatty forgot where my house is.

he's always gets lost around my area.

so just now, i was like ''dont go down the slope, i dont trust you, i love my life''

and so we went the by jalan ulu siglap way.

and he always ride straight and at the last minute, i will go ''left'' or ''right''.

and he'll like ''oi, betul betul lah''.

but nevertheless, thank you gemuk :)

today i save fifty-five cents.

and good luck for the mc-delivery rider job.

make sure you get the siglap one, so when you deliver me my food, i can scold you.

and also cause im scared to go home alone since everyone's talking about ''nenek keropok''.

iqah, me and shasha were practically the last three to sit for oral, so we talked.

and shasha freaked me out.

she said this ''i heard the nenek is around opera estate area''.

honestly, im scared.

real scared.

PARANOID.

everywhere i go, i look around.

and i told my maid to close all the windows and not let anyone in.

before its too late hurr.

main topic in school today was ''nenek keropok''.

anwar/alif/fa'iqah/miss sharifah/shasha/hazwam/tinah/harith/farid/me were talking about it.

the topic is very distracting yet interesting.

and we (me, iqah and shasha) were actually talking about disabled/low-IQ people.

and coincidentally, the topic that came out during oral was linked to that.

so cool.

okay enough said.

ultra long post.

much love;

2009-07-19T22:02:00.005+08:00

and sorry asrol and EVERYONE who was waiting for me to turn (mainly, syikin, ain, isa, and the others), blame my dad and blame the rain.

HAPPY 27th BIRTHDAY ASROL :)

and i have to instill discipline in myself.

i need to lose weight.

the urge to becoming thin is in me yo.

and im so pissed off with the kfc deliveryman.

so far, the only one's that knows what actually happened is yasin.

cause i was msn-ing with yasin and yes, its been so long since i last talked to him.

hurr.

bingit.

the most dumb kental bacin rider.

i hate it when food comes late.
chibai.

much love

2009-07-17T15:59:00.005+08:00

i just got home from bedok interchange.

i went to the cobbler to do my heels sole.

the screw at the bottom came off so yes, i had to do it as soon as possible.

if not i wont have heels to wear tomorrow -.-

the cobbler charged me four bucks to repair the sole.

i spent a total of seventy bucks just now on foundation/mascara/concealer.

i have to look pretty tomorrow you know!

hurr hurr.

and initially i wanted to straighten my fringe and set my hair for tomorrow.

but my mother was like ''waste money lah you''.

and so im scraping off that thought and im going shopping with my father.

me+father = romantic.

my dad is the best shopping partner because i can just take anything and he'll just go:

''ah, take'''

''you want this?''

''ahhhhh''

''put lah''

''okay''

he will never object to anything.

even when i buy clothes he'll just ''ah nice nice, you want?'' whereas my mother will like ''aiyoh, so low, later you bend, all the man can see your boobs'' or she'll JUST HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY SO THAT SHE WONT HAVE TO WASTE MONEY!

-________________________-

so currently, im waiting for my dad to come home and he's gonna accompany me to either tampines/parkway and confirm serangoon.

i need to get bangles and something to wear tomorrow.

tampines/parway cause i need to go to sasa and get mascara and pore pack.

and i need to buy hair spray so my hair wont be out of place tomorrow.

very vain hor very hor.

much love;

2009-07-17T15:47:00.002+08:00

im jinxed.

PLEASE DO NOT CALL/MESSAGE my phone anymore.

apparently something really fucked up happen again.

i was bathing in the morning and i always bring my phone into the toilet with me -.-

and so, i left my phone in the sink on my towel.

and after showering i pulled the towel and JENGJENGJENG my phone flew into the toilet bowl.

i heard a heard metal sound and i turned and my phone was in the toilet bowl.

MY REACTION : ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK!

and i just put my hand into the toilet bowl and took out the phone.

my dad heard me and he was like ''why why, what happen?''

and i said ''no no nothing, the shampoo fell into the toilet bowl''.

WAHHH DAMN FREAKING HEART BREAKING LAH!

this is like the third time i phone went into the toilet bowl.

and thank god i didnt flush my phone down the toilet bowl like what i did two years back.

SO NOW, IM HANDPHONELESS AND UNCONTACTABLE.

much love;

2009-07-16T21:46:00.003+08:00

im ultra tired today.

firdaus is probably enjoying himself in indonesia while im in singapore, rotting to death.

i wanted to do art today till like what around six, but shikin wanted me over at her place.

so yes, i came home and ethan was around so i wasted some time at home then headed over to her place.

i had alot of fun talking rubbish with her and drinking yakult -.-

hurr hurr, and you wont get to see what i thought her how to do until sunday.

cause its for lembu baby.

and wahlau, my cousins from my father's side are coming.

and so after ameerhan's engagement, we have some party -.-

BUT THE PROBLEM IS, I HAVE TO GO TO ASROL'S 27th BIRTHDAY!

i havent met everyone for god knows how long.

i miss everyone :(

i seriously cross my fingers about asrol's birthday.

praying darn hard.

much love;

2009-07-14T21:17:00.003+08:00

this is the ugly side of shahfid -.-
dont know what on earth he's trying to do -.-

favourite minus the smelly face -.-

apit doesnt look like himself anymore.

i was browsing through his picture and i just realised that from different angles, he looks so -.-

and when he's at work and when he's outside, he looks totally different.

and he did a good choice of signing on as a fireman, cause he looks like one hah.

i always tell apit that fireman's are hot and especially those who are around 24-27 years old.

fullamak, hot.

and he'll always tell me this ''im 21 and im hot''.

and i always try to demoralise him by saying ''the olders ones are hotter lah''.

and he'll always convince me by saying ''tu tak betul tu, salah salah''.

sometimes i'll say ''shafid, tampines fire HQ alot of handsome fireman''

and he'll always stand up for his station and say ''NO! bukit batok fire station firemen's are better looking okay''.

and i'll always say '' no, i've not come across any, you also not handsome''.

and he'll as usual say ''tu tak betul tu, salah salah''

recently he's been messaging me alot.

a few days back this idiot message me he said ''im having hangover, i hate this feeling, feeling horny''.

and i said ''shahfid (i dont call him apit cause it sounds so mat), since when you become so horny''

ITS SO NOT YOU LAH!

and i dont understand why people think of shafid as a mat.

okay maybe cause he looks purely melyu and he has that mat face.

he doesnt wear ugly nike slipper toilet and he doesnt speak like those macam paham mats.

okaylah shafid, i'll make you happy, shafid is a hot fireman :)

much love;

2009-07-14T20:50:00.004+08:00

AMEER :)

sometimes i wish ariff had the used to be hair, seriouly.

my mr ben sherman, isa ''people who wear ben sherman will only know that im wearing a harrington''. -.-

isa, you make me look very fat :(

isa has the most SEXIEST legs ever, yummeh :)

popeye madness, there was another table full of people, around 10-12.

ameer's gonna be away for nine freaking months.

i'll miss all his antics.

all his lame jokes.

i'll miss seeing him play ''skipping'' with keisha.

i'll miss him making scary noises when i bring ethan over to his place.

i'll miss arguing with him.

i'll miss him going ''adik, why your fingers like doraemon''.

i'll miss how he'll try to find something to say to irritate the shit out of me and he'll share it with ariff and isa and they all will disturb me.

i'll always remember the time when the fucking no balls guy threatened to beat me up and how ameer and all his siblings were trying to help me.

i remembered ameer saying ''you are stupid, who ask you to fall in love with that type of guy''.

i remembered ameer saying ''anything call me, i bring my whole camp''.

i'll miss ameer dearly.

he's one of the guy cousins that i grew up with.

i'll miss you ameer.

let NINE freaking months pass faster ah.

then we all can play guitar hero.

and you will see a thinner adik when you come back from thailand!

much love;

2009-07-11T21:35:00.002+08:00

i havent met wan tetek and chris for so freaking long.

and it was so good to see the both of them yesterday.

it was rina, me and wan.

then wan left to meet his family for dinner.

and then chris and rae came later on.

when you put chris and me together, all we talk about is sex.

i'll always go ''you diam eh, tak sunat''.

and he'll always have something to say.

rina and me, as usual, we both will talk about everything and anything.the both of us will gossip like mad and laugh like nobody's business and talk about the weirdest random-est thing on earth.weddings/sex/lick/red/chocolate/bed/man, almost everything.

rae and me will like talk rubbish and we'll criticise people like nobody's business.and we'll like talk about sex too.

wan tetek and me will like ''wan, macam tak biasa je dengan i''.

HAHAH, THATS WAN FOR YOU!rina's very lucky to have wan, and tetekS, happy six months baybeh.HELLO WAN, I KNOW YOU'RE READING MY BLOG, DONT LAUGH AND SMILE AH!wan i know i have the SEXIEST, FIRMEST, FULLEST, BIGGEST BUTT you've ever seen.I KNOW AND RINA LOVES SMACKING IT :)but wan, i suka you punya jeans, i wanna touch your ass and do the ''meow''.

next time eh wan next time, we do ass groping!

HAHAHHA, RINA WILL KILL ME!

im gonna miss every single one of you.

rina has to study for her o's.

wan's schooling.

chris is schooling.

rae is working.

naf's schooling.

much love;

2009-07-09T17:23:00.003+08:00

right after the police left, i went into my mom's room and talked to her.

and then farid called.

he said ''im outside your house''

so i ran out of my mom's room and went to check and yes he came.

cause i saw the his bike from my hall's mirror.

and plus farid's bike is two strokes so the noise was disturbing!

i expected farid only, but amin came along too.

wooo, its been quite sometime since i last met amin.

amin has longer hair now and its curly and he looks thinner and he's taller and he's still the quiet one who will just smile and laugh.

hurr hurr.

i look so horrible when they both came.

i was wearing fbt shorts, with amy's hair, with electric top and a smelly face.

but whatever, i just came out to talk to them.

and when amin saw me coming out of the main gate, he said ''badan kau makin naik''

and i said ''i know lah, dont have to remind me''

and farid just gave me the cheeky smile haha.

then i told them the whole story.

and they both basically made me feel better after that.

farid turned to amin and said ''min, jom investigate''

HAHAHAHAH, SO CUTE MAN!

you should have seen the expression on amin's face when farid said that.

so candid.

its good seeing amin after so long.

and its good to see farid after i think four days.

I DID LIKE 3 POST TODAY!

hahahhahahhahaahah.

much love;

2009-07-09T16:47:00.004+08:00

SO BLOODY PISSED TO THE MOTHER. F MAX.

my neighbour is a fucking bitch who thinks that she's perfect.

MAK KAU PEH LAKI AH!

i was watching television with my mother and ethan and my mother dozed off.

while i continued playing with ethan.

my maid was sitting outside with my grandma.

then suddenly, someone called me and it was my neighbour.

for your information, i NEVER EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE HER.

my dad doesnt like her cause she likes to complain over trivial matters.

so she called me and asked me to come over to her place because ''someone'' is throwing parrot kuaci into her compound.

and i said oh, you talk to my mother.

so i woke my mother up and my mother went over.

and she started complaining.

she said that ''someone is throwing kuaci''

and my mother said ''sorry, it must be the parrot''.

and she said that this thing has been going on for sometime.

then she emphasized that ''everyone in your house is adult, so who throw''

and she said ''how many children are there in your house?''

and she continued ''i dont think your son will throw kuaci and sweet wrapers into my house''.

and she said ''your son is very obedient, dont think its him''

and she said ''who else can it be if not her''

so i was so pissed i shouted ''EH DONT BE STUPID LAH, i got to school everyday and i come home and sleep or i'm taking care of the baby''.

and she said ''you come back from school early''

and i said ''EH USE YOUR BRAIN CAN?, I COME HOME AND SLEEP, EVEN MY MOTHER KNOWS THAT, SO DONT MAKE ASSUMPTIONS LAH CHIBAI''

and i continued ''AND IF IM NOT SLEEPING, IM TAKING CARE OF THE BABY''

and she had the cheek to say ''you take care of him everyday meh''

and i said ''EH NABEY LAH, I AM 17 YEARS OLD LAH, AND I AM NOT A PARROT TO EAT PARROT KUACI AND I DONT STAY HOME LIKE YOU TO BE A KEPO LAH''

and she said ''must be you, must be one, your brother is good''

and i said to my mother ''MA, FUCKING COME IN LAH, YOU TALK TO THIS KIND OF PEOPLE, YOU TALK TO DOG BETTER''

and she said ''maybe your daughter is offended about something''

andi said ''EH HELLO, I DONT EVEN TALK TO YOU, WANT TO GET OFFENDED FOR WHAT, DONT BE DUMB LAH''

and i was so annoyed with her i said ''EH YOU KIASU, NEXT TIME PUT CAMERA EVERYWHERE LAH, SO YOU CAN SEE WHO DO IT''

and i said ''bloody dog''.

and i went inside after pointing my finger at her.

and my mother was outside arguing with her.

and then the next thing i knew, police came.

I WAS CALLED OUT LAH TO DO A STATEMENT.

and then i did my statement and i called my dad.

and my dad was like ''tell that woman to fuck off lah''

but whatever it is, that fucking woman is so gonna get it from me.

NAMPAK SANGAT BODOH NAK MAMPUS!

HUMAN KUACI AND PARROT KUACI IS DIFFERENT.

SO KAU BOLEH HISAP KONEK AH NAK CAKAP AKU MAKAN KUACI AND BUANG KAT RUMAH KAU!

KAU DUDUK RUMAH, AND DOGWATCH SUDAH LAH!

MAKCIK KEPO PUN KALAH.

SUNDAL!

and i think that bitch is smart.

i dont usually come home early after school cause i do art.

and even if i come home early, i will shower and go out.

AKU RASA KAN, DIA NAMPAK AKU KAT RUMAH!

AKU BINGIT AKU BINGIT.

AKU NAK REMBAT ORANG.

AKU NAK BAKAR RUMAH DIA.

AKU NAK BUANG TELUR KAT RUMAH DIA!

AKU BINGIT!

NABEY CHIBAI MUSIBAT HARAM PUKIMAK MAKAN BABI PUNYA ORANG!

BENCI AH.

much love;

2009-07-09T15:37:00.004+08:00

i had popeyes on tuesday with mr aku ada height model tau.

i had a fabulous time with him.

initially i wanted to go to popular to get some stuff then i was like ''aku lapar ah''.

so obviously we didnt study!

so since i ALWAYS crave for popeye, we settled on popeye.

so yes, we had alot of catching up to do.

and i had alot of ugly mats staring at me.

please eh mat mat, i know im pretty and i have a cute ass but please lah dont stare too much.

its very disturbing especially when you mats are ugly.

let me do some story telling about this staring thing:

me and rano were queueing up to buy food.
and so there was this group of people, compromising of malay and chinese (assumption).

and then there were more of their friends sitting down.

so the ones infront of me all look like chinese, except for one who is a malay.

i knew that guy was malay because he was wearing the nike slippers (thosethat mats always wear, for your info, that slipper was so last century, rina and me use itfor the toilet) and he even looked like a malay cause of his complexion and the way he dress.

so that particular malay guy kept turning around and then his handphone rang and so he went away from his friends and he faced me and rano while talking.

and he kept staring and i just looked back at him -.-

and then the funny thing is, while i was looking back at him, me and rano were actually listening

to his friends talk.

and we were like ''i think they are fromthailand, listen to their voice''

and then we were like ''eh maybe they singaporean, they going holiday''.

thenwe were like ''maybe this malay guy is friends with the thais''

AHAHAHAH ASSUMPTIONS!

and then this so freaky thing happened.

the whole group finish eating and they pushed their luggage trolley and we saw a surf board.

so we said ''i think they going bali'' HAHA.

then all of them walked one after another and then the malay dude was the second last.

he pushed the trolley and instincts told me to turn and so i turned.

and jengjengjeng, he was life horizontally inclined towards me.

and he gave the ''hurr hurr rapist look'' and i turned to rano and said ''asal dia tengok aku gitu?''

but whatever, bottomline is, he's ugly cause he's dark and he doesnt have straight teeth!

so please fcuk french fries.

then i was craving for ice cream.

so we decided to go to mcdonalds.

so we went the outside way and i was laughing away with rano when i realised that this guy in army uniform was staring at me.

so i just stared back and just continue laughing with rano.

then they guy kept turning to take a look at me, DUH hahahhha.

and he was standing beside a gilera.

so i said ''eee, buruk sia'' to rano.

and then he was turning again and then in my heart i was thinking ''apa ni tengok tengok''.

then i turned and suddenly i said ''eh khairi'' (mr deeds)

and he was like ''yalah, i expected you to see me, but action kan''

BUT MIND YOU, KHAIRI'S GOOD LOOKING CAUSE HE'S MY NEPHEW!
so nevermind, stare some more stare ahhaha.

and i talked to him for five minutes and he asked me so many dumb questions.

but its okay, i understand ahhaah.

then after our macdonald session we sat down and talked and talked until muzzy called me :)

AND FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, RANO HEARD ME TALKING SO NICELY TO SOMEONE.

hello, what do you expect, i cant be using all the vulgarities on him right.

rano, shut up okay!

and rano decided to smoke again.

so i was talking to THIN bee and then there was three ugly guys near rano smoking.

i swear they are so ugly and that its such an insult to have them staring at my ass!

HAHAHAHHAHAHA.

i asked rano to turn and he said ''the guy in white is still staring at you'' something like that.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, muka pecah.

the teeth cannot make it and he look so frigging ugly with the beer in his hands, it was such a turn off, i swear!

okaylah whatever.

and hello to those suckers, i might be fat, but im prettier than you :)

nt happy, then you can fuck french fries.

much love;

2009-07-07T22:00:00.002+08:00

i spent my monday at fadhilah ain and fatin ameera crib.

fatin is a good PRODUCED mathematics teacher, trust me haha.

and the whole time i was there, we practically gossiped/criticise people.

and ain's a good cook.

but ohmygod, the noodles she cooked was SUPER SPICY, i nearly died.

okay im exaggerating (?)

so we practically went to see the fucker's picture and his comments to other girls.

and the three of us were reading comments from random boys to this super ugly girls.

and then there was this picture, this guy commented on the girl this:

''NEED SOME SLIMMING PILLS?''

and atin, ain and me were laughing like mad horses.

imagine a guy saying that to a girl, so demoralising.

we basically had fun kutok-ing the super ugly girls who was practically showing off her super huge saggy boobs and her ugly brows and her sense of dressing.

i know, very rude.

but we cannot help it.

and the guy who commented her, is so -.-

his face is so distorted and his face is like a beruk.

much love;

2009-07-05T23:24:00.004+08:00

ohmygod, so many rapper's are muslim.

and sorry, you cant see the video because blogger's being a bitch.

if you wanna see the video, nudge me.

and firdaus a bitch, YAY!

much love;

2009-07-02T22:46:00.003+08:00

supppppp :)

school and work is so tiring that i dont even have the time to blog.

and i think my blog is pretty boring -.-

okay whatever.

i have alot of story, starting with HAHA.

everyday i take the bus to school and there will be FOUR super gorgeous army boys.

fullamak, super handsome and they're body is yummeh ;)

i managed to catch a glimpse of one of the guys and his name was ahmad.

and he's so bloody cute, make me wanna take the 6.45 bus everyday.

hurr hurr.

i miss tetek, tetek, tetek, tetek (rae, chris, rina, wan) alot.

you guys should probably know the reason by now right.

exams are around the corner.

and speaking of that.

PRELIMS WILL BE STARTING NEXT WEEK :(

how sucky can that get.

but its okay, my mom's willing to pay for me to have tuition every single day.

hahahaha, my mom's probably gonna be broke lah after my exams.

spending money on my tuition.

300 per week, gila, but its okay.

mom loves me and she wants me to die studying haha.

and on friday (US), saturday (SG), michael jackson will be buried.

i love michael jackson.

everyone, who's related to me, knows that my family loves him to the core.

this happened a few days before michael jackson passed away.

me, brother, shikin, isa and ain were playing guitar hero.

and they chose ''beat it''.

and my brother was like ''i dont know how to sing lah'' (he was actually shy of his voice)

and shikin was like ''you guys grow up listening to him, how can you not know how to sing''.

and it was so tragic when he died.

as usual, i woke up to see my father and then i switched on the tv to watch cnn.

and suddenly, it was ''breaking news'' and jeng jeng jeng, legend was on the way to hospital.

and then yeah, i messaged banu/rano/muzzy/hafiz/fadhilah ain and the list goes on.

and hafiz the idiot replied this ''are you drunk?''.

and i said ''kau seorang je lah minum pukul tujuh pagi''.

AND HE PAID ME TEN BUCKS CAUSE HE WAS LIKE ''OKAY, LETS BET''.

and finally, im nearly done with my art, I THINK.

i just have to polka dot the whole canvas.

will show you all my FABULOSITY art piece.

kimora come up with the coolest words ever, i love channel 80 alot.

and i just ate two pizzas and i feel so babi-ish.

im supposed to go on a diet, thanks to people who keep reminding me that

''NAF, YOU'RE GAINING WEIGHT, YOUR FACE LOOKS FATTER NOW''.

the word fat is already painful for me, fatter ?

my god.

and im gonna stay with my sister when jerry goes to germany next week.

i think im gonna stay with her until he comes back.

so gonna enjoy myself there :)

with all those sexy facilities, so yummeh!

i hope to go shopping :)

AND MY BROTHER IS FUCKING IRRITATING!

he should die, because he's been saying ''you're damn fat''.

FUCKERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

i hope he marries someone that's of nikky blonsky size, i swear man.

much love;

2009-06-25T13:22:00.003+08:00

i accompanied azad to suntec yesterday cause that bugger kept bugging me to follow him to get new shoes and new clothes and the list goes on.

what do you expect, people's pay day what -.-

so he dropped me off at parkway cause i wanted to eat macdonald's and i needed to go to the bank to do some money transaction.

and cause he stays at teck whye so i didnt want him to waste petrol, chey hah.

i messaged babe thinking that he would be able to meet me but he was still at work -.-

so i became a loner and walked around alone :)

i took the bus home and i met FIFI.

the whole episode of meeting her was so freaking hilarious.

let me do some storytelling:

i was sitting at the front of the bus when at the next stop, this girl boarded the bus and you know right, when people board the bus, you will just glance at them.

and so i did exactly that and i was thinking ''ohmygod, what a skinny girl''.

then suddenly this girl stopped infront of me and stared at me and i was like ''what the hell is wrong with this skinny girl'' and so i decided to look up

intermission.

i mumbled ''FIFI'' ''FIFI'' and she said ''NAFISAH'' ''NAFISAH''.

then she sat beside me and then what a coincidence, the woman behind us alighted and then the both of us decided to sit together and catch up.

and fifi was reminising (?) about her secondary school days with me.

and then i looked away and fifi was like ''I DONT REMEMBER YOU BEING THIS SHY''.

and i said ''NO IM NOT, I HAVENT SEEN YOU IN 4 YEARS, WHAT DO YOU EXPECT''.

then jeng jeng jeng, i alighted and then i got home and i talked to fifi on facebook.

and thank you facebook, cause if not for you, fifi wouldnt have recognised me.

heh.

fifi, should meet up more so that i wouldnt have ''shocking'' ''shy'' moments anymore.

much love;

2009-06-23T12:13:00.004+08:00

i just got back from school.

went to school with farid to do art, and i swear it was such a waste of time.

we met at eight and we had breakfast in the canteen together while waiting for mr tock.

we practically did our art for only one and a half hours, nine to ten thirty.

then that fatty was like ''i want to smoke lah''

so we packed and went to eat at the back, as usual.

he rode his bike to the back and met me at the carpark.

when you put two fat people together, all they do is eat, drink and smoke right?

anyway, i get really annoyed when people keep thinking that im with farid.

YA ALLAH.

the security guard in my school is like ''eh, boyfriend ada motor, kenapa dia tak hantar balik?''

and im like ''pakcik, dia bukan boyfriend saya, dia kawan lah''.

so bloody annoying, everytime i see the pakcik, he'll ask me the same old question -.-

anyway, later in the afternoon, my mother, me, miyon, and ethan are going to east coast to play ''celup-celup'' (is there such a word?) whateverlah.

you know i know lah eh -.-

woo, so be prepared to see me in a darker shade yeah?

much love;

2009-06-21T17:22:00.007+08:00

happiness.

im happy because i got lukman's letter thanks to my bibik.

i will share with you what he wrote in his letter when my parents arent home.

so i studied today and im fucking proud of myself.

kau tau, aku sembahyang tadi!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH VERY PROUD PLEASE!

cause i havent been sembahyang-ing for i dont know how long.

sembahyang-ing before you study is good, seriously.

much love;

2009-06-18T19:52:00.004+08:00

i woke up at five in the morning to make a last minute decision if i should follow my parents or just stay in good ol singapore.

and then when i wanted to say ''kaylah, i follow lah'' and jeng jeng jeng my phone vibrated.

so i put my mother on hold and read the message.

and it was from babe.

so me, being very fickle minded decided not to go.

and so i texted him until he had to go to work and while he was at work.

then i went back to sleep.

and at two, finella called me up cause she's at orchard alone.

HAHAHAHA SORRY FIN I WAS SLEEPING, VERY BLUR!

another day okay okay okay okay i promise you :)

and i went back to sleep and i woke up at six -.-

and atin message me just now telling me that ain's warded.

and its at SGH.

ohmygod, outram.

but its for ain, so im cool with it.

so im gonna visit her tomorrow :)

much love;

2009-06-17T22:50:00.005+08:00

at last, i dont have to wake up early to go to ngee ann poly.

ohmygod, the travel time kills the shit out of me please.

but yes, i had fun getting to know alot of my school people.

i mean, i do see them, but i ''buat bodoh'' and all of them actually thinks that i am action.

when actually im not action at all haha :)

okay whatever.

and to my favourite people, i am free now until school reopens.

so, please book me accordingly thank you :)

and and, tomorrow, my parents wont be in singapore.

so, that means.

hanky panky wanky sanky danky tanky fanky sanky yanky xanky zanky ranky ganky.

whateverlah im talking rubbish so just mind me!

much love;

2009-06-16T20:05:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYGIRL!

i owe you a big big big cake full of strawberries :)

hope you had a blast.

sorry couldnt come down yesterday to celebrate with you people.

i was super tired and im tired now too.

will make it up to you after wednesday yeah.

sayang you.

enjoy being old.

start saving money to get married yeah. (wan, you hear me?)

legal, so what you waiting for?

its the time to make babies ;)

much love;

2009-06-12T16:27:00.007+08:00

muzzy's going to genting with his family tonight and he'll be back on tuesday.

man, im so gonna miss this big babe.

you'd better not eye any minah malaysia please, i doubt you will lah.

but you never know right.

heh.

love you.

i miss all of them.

i want 2008 back so badly haha.

pictures are not in sequence.

love.

diana. faidhi. rudy. khairi. sarah. najib. ariff. shikin.
diana. ernita. ain.

mas. fir. aim. iin. asrol. ibrahim. ezzat. hafiz. saiful. yani. shikin. ain.

sarah al-baqi.

eddy al-baqi.

rina rahman.

wan tetek.

farzana.

eera.

lukman nurhakim.

faizal.

rae.

christopher.

nurzila.

shafira.

rano.

fadhilah ain.

nasia.

saufi.

fahmi said.

iskandar sherman.

did i miss out anyone?

i doubt so, but if i did miss anyone out, im sorry yeah.

perhaps i miss you people out because you people arent as important as them.

HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

kidding lah, i dont have the time to stalk you people and grab your photo.

sorry babe.

much love;

2009-06-11T15:25:00.003+08:00

eh hello hurr hurr.

macam dah lama kan aku tak blog -.-

sorry have been rather busy helping my mom clean the bloody house.

my sister's psychoing (?) my dad to renovate the whole house.

hello, i live in this house for 12 freaking years, its about time to move yo.

my first house was at tanah merah.

i stayed at this road called jalan tanjong.and if im not wrong, my house is number 33.

and i stayed directly infront of salihin's house.
and isa also stayed a few houses away from me.
my second house is this current house im in.

opera estate -.-
and one thing is for sure, opera has alot of handsome boys!

okay whatever lah, i hope by next year my house looks better.

please please.

stupid post -.-

much love;

2009-06-06T18:54:00.002+08:00

i am so bloody pissed off to the max with myself.

yes you got me, MYSELF.

urgh.

i sent 18 empty messages to muzzy.

and he got really pissed with it.

and then i called him up to ask him to fetch me from school and then drop rina off at her place.

and he said okay and he'll call me before he reach.

and guess what, i checked my phone and waited for his call.

and jengjengjeng.

my phone died on me.

and i fucking dont have a charger cause i left it a sis's place.

makkk, aku jadi gila.

rina, i am so sorry that you had to take a bus home.

sorry so sorry.

i owe you one.

now, i have to wait for muzzy to finish his soccer.

and i'd better give a good explaination if not i'll mengamok sendiri.

thank you.

tolong.

much love;

2009-06-06T18:26:00.005+08:00

facebook is being a bitch.

i've been trying to upload today's picture, but i cant seem to.

anyway, i had great fun, only one thing was in the way.

the heat heat heat.
damn &$$#%^%^*(().

fucking hot to the max please.

i swear this year's bv bazaar is so bloody boring.

year 2006/2007 was the best.

this year's so -.-

and rina and me and the others were actually ''people watching''.

the amount of MINI mats and minahs is mmmmmchey.

catch up with farzana and the boys and the others.

it feels good, so good, so good.

okay, i hope we're going out on tuesday night :)

cheers.

any blogger is also being a bitch.

i uploaded 14 pictures and when i view this post, i only have like what 5/6 pictures.

waste my timeeeeeeee.

much love;

2009-06-04T12:06:00.004+08:00

&%$@$%^&*%^%#@W%$

im hungry hungry.

''an angry woman is always a hungry woman''

i didnt go to school cause i was too lazy to get out of bed.

so im gonna stay home then later in the afternoon go to the airport to send my aunt to london then at night, im going to some hotel with ain :)

that means, tomorrow i get to eat hotel breakfast, yummy :D

anyway, two days ago i was bored to death at home.

so i decided to bake cookie.

i wanted to make souffle cake, but i dont have one of the ingredients.

muzzy came over to my place last night and i only got to see him for ten freaking minutes cause he had to fetch his parents, im fine with that.

i didnt get to meet fabOfive yesterday cause i had menses!

menses cramps are so ^%^$#$%^$&*

and i want to taste rina's cooking.

damn.

and people, i miss you all alot!

rina: i dont want any boyfriends anymore.

when im with you people, yes i do want to have a boyfriend.

but when im with muzzy, no i dont want to have any boyfriend.

yes, muzzy and me broke up ages ago.

but we're still happy together.

and he's seen me going through all my nabey cb break ups haha.

but no matter what, you're the only one that can make me happy.

much love;

2009-06-02T22:08:00.003+08:00

this is for my favourite girl, RINA RAHMAN :)

babygirl, thanks for being there for me all these years.

and a big thank you for being there for me when i was at my lowest.

and babe, dont be so sad that you're posted to vivo.

thank god you'll only be there for three weeks.

lucky you that im having holidays now, so that means, if wan isnt able to send you to work, i can send you to work :)

or perhaps, the both of us can send you to work and if you dont have to work until the wee hours of the morning, we will wait for you and we can go home together-gether :)

and babe, dont worry about the birthday/gathering.

we'll figure something out for you yeah.

and no, if you cant get an off on your birthday itself, i hope wan has something in mind.

will call him up to discuss soemthing for you okay sayang!

me + wan = sodomise rinaaaa! (okay merepek).

anyway, thank you so much babygirl.

you dont worry so much please :)

you got me, wan, rae and chris and the others, so there's nothing to worry about.

rina, this i gotta say it.

remember three years ago, we were sitting down under the void deck waiting for farid and all and i was so pissed off with shafie that i threw a bottle without even realising that i threw the bottle at you.

and mind you, the bottle was full of water.

i threw it and it left a red mark on your face HAHA.

thinking about it, makes me wanna laugh.

im so evil, but its so funnyyyyy!

you still remember about it dont you?

babe, dont get so tensed.

count one to ten.

call me up if you need anything.

love you babe :)

a great cousin.

a great sister.

a great girlfriend.

a great gossip-er.

a great everything.

and thank you wan for taking care of her for five months and still counting :)

i love you for that!

much love;

2009-06-01T11:45:00.004+08:00

taufik's call woke me up -_-
he gave me his email and password to his blog and practically all of his accounts.
YAY!

today, im gonna be a good daughter and im gonna stay home.
for real ah.
furthermore, i have no cash on me.
im broke to my boxers, i swear.

anyway, today's the 1st of june.
and im gonna sart my june healthily (?)
im going for an afternoon jog and im gonna start eating vegetable (for real).

i cannot wait to lose weight :)
like seriously, i WANT/HAVE to become thin.

i hate being fat, NONO.
sometimes i love being fat.
but NONO.
i cannot remain fat.
the pressure to be thin+healthy is there.
and i wanna live longer.

plus i hate it when i go to zara and i try on size M and i cant fit anymore.
the saying goes ''you dont alter a zara to fit you, you alter yourself to fit into a zara''.
cheyyyy yang cakap.

nevermind, rina, when we got $600 bucks, we shop till we drop.
and make sure i buy everything a size smaller.

chris, you must motivate me and whack me when i eat keropok!
and you must TORTURE me when we go to the gym!

underweight ( ) acceptable ( ) overweight (X) obese ( )
i am 130 %.

wah damn sian ah.
120 % is acceptable.
10% more is peanuts.

I NEED TO LOSE 18KG AND I'LL BE OVER THE MOON :)

much love;

2009-05-28T19:41:00.005+08:00

you want me to tell the truth, but when i do tell the truth, i get the cold shoulders.

so i settled with ''i'll never ever open up to you''.

because to me, opening up to you would mean trouble.

trouble trouble trouble.

and when the letter came, i didnt expect you to read it.

when you hinted to me about reading the letter, my world just came crashing down.

i want my space, my privacy.

im wise enough to know whats right and whats wrong.

i hate it when you look down on him.

doesnt mean he's in that state, he's a threat to everyone.

you are wrong.

stop stereotyping people.

you dont know how i feel when you said that the letter is in the drain and it comes from a stupid boy and its stupid letter.

how would you feel if someone tells you that?

one word : HEARTLESS.

i hope today wont be the end.

because you know that whatever it is, i will still wait.

i couldnt bring myself to tell you what happened just now cause i knew that if i were to tell you what happened, you will be very depressed.

but i couldnt control myself.

when you asked me ''why do you look so sad''.

i tried smiling and tears rolled down my cheek and when i eventually told you what happened, you said ''takpelah, you listen to them until they are okay with you, you come and see me''.

your eyes turned red and i knew you were controlling your tears.

when i told you about the letter, you stared at me and you kept quiet.

i felt really bad about it.

but im sure we're able to work things out together.

i will wait for July 2010.

one word : LOVE

you will always be my best boyfriend.

im trying my best to be strong about it.

but i cant help not crying myself to sleep about it.

and i thank rina, susu, ramdhan, cikgu raudza, bonda, jorelle for making me feel better.

and a big thank you to raiba for being a mate to hakim inside :)

much love;

2009-05-26T21:20:00.003+08:00

chris boxers damn cute : SIMPSONS!

i was half naked just now cause i wanted chris to wear my jeans but i didnt want to wear his shorts cause i will look so retarded in it haha.

so i pulled my top and covered my cute purplish brown boxers hahaha.

then he said that my jeans is big.

the backside got alot of air.

yes, i have a negro's ass ( wan aka my sodomising victim) said so.

at least my ass is firm :)

and after giving me my jeans back i didnt know my ass was facing the open window until rina/rae told me.

bloody embarrasing ah.

imagine if rae has a hot neighbour and he gets to see my cute ass.

shush shush.

i asked rina to message wan that i miss him.

then he said WOW! MY SODOMISER!

so funny, he can layan my merepek-ness.

watched youtube and i feel like uploading videos but am too lazy.

perhaps tomorrow or thursday or friday.

cause im not going to school on thursday as i have to visit lukman :)

and friday is like the last day of school.

feels good baybeh.

let the week end as soon as possible.

i want to meet up with the fabOfive.

and i hope syahir,ariff,harun,syukri and whoever thats coming will come.

much love;

2009-05-26T21:15:00.002+08:00

i had sexcited talks with rina.

licking.red room, aiyah, let your imagination run wild :)

we got secret place to hang out.
only two stupid cold storage malay boys know where it is.
and i know one of the boys, not exactly boys.
the one i know is twenty five and his name is ridhwan -.-

but whatever.
eh harun make me ''want to find boyfriend''.
harun, why must you emphasise on thatttt.

much love;

2009-05-23T21:27:00.008+08:00

yes, gemuk.

i will tone my arms when i have the time.

heh.

wan had sexcited talks with me infront of rina.

i think rina is used to it already haha.

wan, sini ah. naf, sini ah. sini lah.

action : hands on the lap.

wan, makes cat sound and scratches. naf corrects the tone.

HAHAHAHAHAH SEXY!

i feel so clean now.

i just got back from picnic-ing with fabOfive.

sexiest people on earth.

when people are broke, picnic-ing is the best thing to do.

so this saturday we're probably going to ubin.

then we gonna go swimming at jurong the following week and enjoy the whole week together.

and yay, wan having three weeks holiday and so june is so gonna be fun cause chris doesnt start school until july.

so yay, no one's gonna go missing.

rina : i will send you the sexy pictures of you.

and hahaha, thats the only nicest picture of me inside in my camera :(

hahahahaha.

i love you softcore -.-

much love;

2009-05-22T21:17:00.005+08:00

i did my art during:

1) malay

2) mathematics

3) recess

4) geography

5) mathematics

6) until 4.30 pm.

so i practically did my art for 9 hours today.

not kidding.

and i am so proud.

cause i finished my whole board and the only thing i have to do is touch up.

WOOOHOOOOOO :)

and i met my fabulous five.

i was totally wrecked when i got home, but yet i went to rae's place to meet them.

one/two hours is them is sex yo.

AND YAY!

we gonna have picnic tomorrow, woohooo.

everything settled.

and i hope my week will end on a good day with fab people.

and i hope muzzy's not angry with me anymore.

then he can fetch me tomorrow :)

much love;

2009-05-21T15:33:00.004+08:00

sup, the most embarrasing thing that can ever happen : stand infront of the whole school with the whole class in one line.

anyway, i hope tomorrow i get to meet the babys and the babis.

im dying dying.

i need to smoke and im broke :(

anyway, im gonna have to sleep now.

im bloody tired.

i rushed to school like one bloody cuckoo but its okay, i wasnt late.

so i have to sleep to avoid rushing to school tomorrow.

eh fuck, i really cannot open my eyes anymore.

okay bye.

much love;

2009-05-20T21:16:00.002+08:00

i cannot wait for this week to end.

and i cannot wait for next friday too.

school's out baybeh.

means i have time to hooray hooray before n's again -.-

so that means, i can go out and enjoy.

but im gonna have to work so that i can enjoy.

canot be budget-ing during shopping right.

must shop till i drop :)

so, rina, you accompany me go childcare and get job back!

we need moneh baybeh.

and woohoo, i am so proud of myself.

my art is nearly done.

now i dont have to think about mounting board, cause i finished it donkey months ago :)

yessa, im so not gonna come back during june holidays.

okay bye.

i just got back and im hungry.

so i toasted cheese hotdog.

diam.

much love;

2009-05-19T19:49:00.003+08:00

first of all, im sorry to you too jina.

heh, lets like not get angry wiht each other yo.

i bet faizal wont be happy that his girlfriend and his bestfriend aint friends heh.

this is for rinababy and wan tetek bully beruk :)

and raebaby and chris gemuk :)

rinababy, me, you would look so out of place if we were skinbyrd and i cannot imagine wan being a skinhead, im so gonna laugh my ass off lah.

and true, rae and chris can carry of the look, the two culture lovers :/

and its okay wan, its really okay.

i wouldnt wanna go picnic-ing with a couple, i would feel so left out -.-

but yeah, wan you're one sweet beruk heh, two thumbs up for not wanting me to feel so bored!

anyway, rina lets like hang out at rae's place lah.

chris can go for his skinhead gathering and he can join us after that.

and we can sit and rot at rae's house and wan can join us if he wants too.

then i'll talk to wan about sex like how i talk to chris about it.

we can play dress up and masak masak, like what we usually do at my place when mom's out.

HAHAH :)

and rinababy, i miss you freaking alot too :(

and lets all, the five of us, save money and buy a baking oven and leave it at rae's place.

then we can bake all day :)

and we can make business at the same time.

set lah.

rinababy, i love you i love you i love you i love you.

and im praying for this saturday :)

im so blessed to have friends like them.

eh no, the four of them are actually more than friends to me :)

if i dont get married (i doubt i wont get married, im actually sipposed to get married first even though im the youngest amongst them) they will take care of me.

cause we gonna stay together :)

we plan about our cool future like a gazillion times!

heh.

much love;

2009-05-17T20:48:00.005+08:00

baby zee ask me to watch this and ohmygod super duper good lah this two.

and the guy is woooooo.

he handsomer than chris brown.

im in love with him and his voice.
much love;

2009-05-15T19:49:00.005+08:00

read what farid farus sent me:

1) primary school like vanessa hudgens.

2)you look more like britney spears now.

farid, i feel like shooting you right in your head mafia style.

yes, farid still maintain his size, still thin while im the opposite.

indirectly, farid's trying to say that im fat now.

but shut the fuck up, i am still your ex girlfriend and that will always remain hah.

i told shafira everything while going home.

we practicallu talk about the ping yi boys haha.

and she said ''i give you one week lah''

i cant believe i liked farid alot last time, so dumb.

NO BANU NO, trust me.

but thinking back, getting back with your primary school boyfriend is so cool.

and oh my seven years is like wow.

banu said ''true love''.

haha.

much love;

2009-05-14T11:13:00.003+08:00

i just got back from malay oral.

i think im gonna fail.

i got my cikgu for the examiner -___________-

and he said this is malay ''try to control your usage of english''.

i didnt know i was speaking english the whole entire time.

until cikgu had to prompt me and say ''bahasa melayu''.

and then i will go ''ahhhh, errrrm, what is education is malay cikgu''.

im such a joker -.- a dumb one.

hurr hurr.

anyway, who's going to school tomorrow?

i doubt im going.

i love this whole week :)

i wish school is like this.

tsk.

and i miss the fab four.

rina/wan/rae/chris.

you hear me babies?

much love;

2009-05-12T15:36:00.005+08:00

thats the cupcake i made for my mark sinclair.

okay im gonna name my child mark sinclair jr.

slap me and bring me back to reality.

tsk.

baby, drive to my place tonight to collect them yeah.

i dont wanna keep it in the fridge for too long cause later i've got a strong feelingt that my brother's gonna eat all of it.

hurr hurr.

i hate misunderstandings.

i hate it when we have misunderstandings.

i hate it how we have to quarrel over the littlest things.

i hate it when you're egoistic.

i hate it when you give me an option.

i hate it i hate it.

but i take my stand, no one is perfect.

neither you nor me.

and muzzy's such a sweetheart.

i left the cookies in the oven for too long and it was charred.

but i still gave some to muzzy then i asked him if its nice and i even told him ''hangus''.

and i know he knows that its charred but he didnt wanna say it to me.

instead, he said ''nah, i think its perfect, sedap gila''.

now thats what you call someone who appreciates you and your effort.

hehe :)

you know i still love you even though we argue every single day.

much love;

2009-05-11T21:45:00.006+08:00

x-men was good.

i know im a little bit too late, but whatever, you're never too late to do anything.

-____________________-

i watched x-men on saturday after going to bukit batok.

then went to tampines mall to meet azad and friends to eat.

oh and i met farhah after so long.

and i asked this random question.

i asked her ''kau ada number farid?''

then she said ''dia besar punya matrep''

and i went ''hahahhahahahahahahah kau biar betul''.

okay whatever whatever maybe he is one now -.-

okay so, muzzy fetch me at tampines cause he was going to his friend's place at chai chee.

sayang you alot :)

oh and azree, i told him about you wanting to be his friend HAHA!

i was like ''your brother's friend wants to befriend you''

and he said ''for what''

so just forget it yeah az.

anyway, i baked cookies for him on saturday.

actually i baked for my brother but i had him in mind so i baked another batch just for him.

i wanted him to have it for breakfast when he's at work.

cause i dont want him to get hungry.

so baby drove to my place at night to collect it.

like i said to you, i made it with love :)

i hope you love it hon.

much love;

2009-05-11T21:33:00.004+08:00

without my father and mother, i wont be around.

my dad is like my mom, my mom is like my dad.

my mom is like my mom, my dad is like my dad.

tsk tsk.

have been pretty busy and didnt have the time to blog -_-

okay anyway, after three years, my family is a family yay.

but whatever, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.

i love you mother.

and to all the mothers, happy mother's day.

and especailly to baby's mom, happy mother's day :)

hurr hurr.

much love;

2009-05-07T21:46:00.004+08:00

(thanks rae for snapping this gemuk gambar of me hehe)

i just chatted with azree.

myohmy, i miss fighting with him.

we practically argue for no rhyme or reason.

hurr hurr hurr hurr.

azree ''aku dengan haikal sama class, kau kenal minlost, adik santiago, dia pun class aku''

that bloody sentence freaked me out.

cause muhaimin is muzzy's brother.

and how muhaimin know that azree knows me is like this:

azree and haikal was talking about the good ol kental days and i was part of their convo and muhaimin went ''NAF NAF'' eh wahahahahaa.

i wonder what azree and haikal were actually talking about, freaky shitzx.

friday netball.

saturday bukit batok.

sunday mother's day.

monday alexandra hospital.

why swine flu meter drop to yellow!

i was hoping for it to go from orange to red.

hurr, holidays is never enough for me i guess.

much love;

2009-05-04T16:26:00.005+08:00

my lover to the core hardcore.

im gonna delete alot of my post.

i think some of them are really crappy.

i cannot wait for the week to end.

let the week end faster cause i am sick.

firdaus (maz husband) said this ''dik, you have babi flu eh?''

while i was playing netball.

hahahhahaha, kurang di ajar betul.

this is how im feeling now:

i am sick, my throat is killing me.

my flu is being bitchy.

i am having menses cramps.

im having mood swings.

i hate the drug that keeps putting me to sleep.

i hate the nazolin spray.

i hate the blue antibiotic.

i hate medicines.

i hate having to stuff tissue up my nose -_-

i hate being sick.

fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it.

much love;

2009-05-03T17:50:00.005+08:00

this is my nephew.

and his name is ethan.

he is my sister's son.

and he's beside me now, sleeping.

i love him.

and i want my boyfriend to look like him

much love;

2009-05-01T17:13:00.006+08:00

i think my MAY started off good.

i met up with rae, chris, rina and syazwan at parkway then they send me to kallang for my netball training.

i had netball with shikin, asrol, nadya, ibrahim, yani, saiful, maz, fir, khairul, hafiz, khairul's sister and sister's boyfriend, farah, brandon and azmi which was good.

been ages since we had netball, nolah, we didnt have netball for three fucking weeks.

and i really needed netball and i miss the netball people.

i went out with baby zee, susu and rano.

its been 396574657439896574 months since i went out with them.

then they went to watch x-men while i went back.

thats basically it.
much love;

2009-04-30T16:48:00.003+08:00

apik told me to blog about farid farus.

hurr.

so i shall blog about farid farus.

i knew farid since i was in primary one.

i know weird+disgusting+stupid+funny.

farid farus is two years my senior.

he is indian just like me.

i was in primary four and he was in primary six.

he was in art club and so was i.

he was in road corssing shit and so was i.

we were in the same tuition centre.

he lives near my house.

our classes were opposite.

he was in aida house and i was in dido house.

thats what i can remember about farid :)

yeah thats basically it.

and i wanna see farid farus now cause apik thinks that he's a mat now.

which i will never wanna believe until i get to talk to him again.

APIK, YOU'RE IRRITATED? hurr hurr.

much love;

2009-04-30T15:54:00.006+08:00

i need tissues and more tissue.

my nose is killing me you bloody sucka.

but overall, i had a pretty good day in school :)

i love it when i know alot of people dont like me, very thirlling.

and i cannot stand flying pigs hurr hurr. (alif/hazwan, you know i know)

anyway, ramdhan made my day today.

he's so funny.

i was at the traffice light and he was with his girlfriend and he was making the 'pss' 'pss' sound to attract my attention.

i knew it was him but i purposely ignored haha.

then he said ''mat motor kau mana, tak hantar kau pergi sekolah''.

dhan, that was so long ago please.

sekarang lain dulu lain.

muzzy is my one and only.

my alarm clock, cause he wakes me up ALMOST every single day at six for the past four years.

actually nolah, its always me that wakes him up.

imagine, hari hari at 6.45 i have to call (first warning)

7.00 call again (second warning)

he's always saying ''five minutes five minutes'' haha.

tapi takpa, its worth it trust me.

he's the best.

much love;

2009-04-28T16:25:00.003+08:00

my face is a darker shade than my neck, my neck is a darker shade than my boobs.

argh, i need loreal nutri summer so that everything will be in the same shade.

but nevermind, i should be thankful.

i hate being sick.

tsk.

i was sick last night while i was at rae's house with the fab five minus tetek.

had alot of sex talks, gerek!

i mean, everytime we meet, there must be something that's linked to sex.

hurrrrrr :)

my brother and me didnt go to school.

so we went out with our parents and ethan.

and YAY.

i got two bank account and a joint account with my momma.

means i can go shopping everyweek, hurr.

its been some time since i went to town.

and east is getting boring already.

ever heard ''the grass is greener on the other side''.

yeah, thats how i feel.

much love;

2009-04-26T19:14:00.006+08:00

i miss these two babes like crazy though i just met them two days ago.

the biggest is the youngest, the oldest is the smallest.

rina's turning eighteen soon.

rae's already eighteen.

when im 19 im gonna move out of my house.

then the three of us are gonna stay together :)

and our kids are gonna grow up together.

and when i give birth,

rina's gonna be my gynae.

rae's gonna be the sister.

chris is gonna be the male nurse.

wan's gonna be the psychologist.

hurr and my boyfriend's gonna be the one thats gonna say ''PUSSSSSSSSSSSH''.

did you know:

sex is the most important thing to a long lasting relationship.

sex is also the most healthiest exercise.

sex works better when one partner is thinner/bigger than the other.

sex is the best thing that can ever happen.

im not sick -.-

this is my view.

dont like it? then suit yourself.

before i stuff my fucking feet into your bloody vagina, you'd better shut your fucking trap.

you bloody kiddo.

much love;

2009-04-25T20:35:00.005+08:00

its a saturday night and im gonna stay home.

i dont usually stay home on saturday cause its a saturday hah.

i wanna meet muzzy, tsk.

today, i wont be meeting him.

his grandmother just passed away.

i have not met his grandmother in person, but he's always telling me about her.

and from what he told me, i figured that she must have been a strong dependent woman.

its really heartbreaking when he told me ''granny just passed away''.

i got the shock of my life cause he was talking to me about her a few days back.

to muzzy:

dont worry alright baby.

god loves her more, he wants her to be closer.

dont worry too much alright.

i'll always be there for you.

i'll pray for her too okay.

dont be too sad about it.

everyone has to go one day right.

you and me will also have to go one day.

so just calm yourself down and take it slow.

may granny rest in peace.

much love;

2009-04-25T20:25:00.003+08:00

was supposed to go out with mom to parkway to collect my jeans but didnt.

instead, i went to meet up with the fabulous five minus syazwan.
i love you people hardcore.
tsk.

went to airport to eat our hearts out :/
when i get the pictures from rae, you people are gonna get the shock of your life.
but i dont think im gonna post some pictures.
i dont want stupid kiddos like you to spread rumours.
save it.

much love;

2009-04-23T20:08:00.003+08:00

if you're STILL gossiping about me, means you're affected with whats going on.

right you small little girl?

right now, i miss:

-muzamil :)

-lukman nurhakim.

-rina

-shazwan

-rae

-chris

-faizal

-fadhilah ain

-baby zee

-susu

-rano

-saufi

-eera babygirl

-nasia

-isa dora donut

the above names mentioned is what you call F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

people you can count on, unlike you sucka.

2009-04-23T19:06:00.006+08:00

i didnt go for p.e today cause i had to rush down to changi prison to visit hakim.

and i didnt just get to see hakim, i got to see raiba too.

it was so funny.

i story telling a little bit okay haha.

i went to buy water at the vending machine with bonda then i saw this three guys.

one of them looked bloody familiar and the other two looks so -.-

and he approached us and he said he's roy's big brother -.-

how can i remember how his brother looks like when i havent met him for god knows how long.

hurr hurr.

anyway this time we got room 1.

it was so funny.

cause roy doesnt know my real name, he calls me 'kecik'.

and hakim told me this ''i cakap dengan roy yang you selalu tengok i, then roy tak tau siapa, tapi roy kata kalau tengok muka, mesti kenal''

then whne our session ended, roy came to our room and he was like:

''KECIKKKKKKKKKKKKK, DAH BESAR HAHAHAHAH'' (he was shouting like an idiot) and he kept waving like a crazy dude.

and hakim asked me to turn and when i turned i saw three heads and it belongs to roy's brother and his two friends, kepo number one -.-

all in all, it was a sad/happy moment.

and hakim, i will keep to my promise okay, dont worry :)

i will take care of myself and i will take care of bonda until you and abang come out.

so dont you worry too much.

love you alot.

muhc love;

2009-04-23T18:57:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY ETHAN!

i love you babylove.

you're our whole family's joy.

we all love you.

and you're my favourite nephew.

and i hope your momma makes more babies!

tsk, im sick.

much love;

2009-04-20T15:25:00.003+08:00

sunday was great!

i woke up early in the morning to have breakfast with my parents.
then went off to tampines to meet fadhilah ain to print some pictures.

initially i didnt wanna go to her place but the weather (?) was being a bitch and i was kinda freaked out cause she stays near a scary place.
in the end we did scrapbooking at her place.

i felt very malu in her house when both her brother's are around HAH.
the first at home, nevermind, the second one at home, i mind.
hurr.

and i hate ain's first brother.
HATE!
i wanna complain to fadhli about it hahaha.
ain, shuddap eh!

and ain's second brother (fadhli) is the most cheekiest adorable (est) ever HAHA, slap me.
and i want to bring atin home and make her my teddy bear.
and i want ain's house ceiling (IM RETARDED +JAKUN)

kay go.
and i love ain's parents.
so nice and sweet :)

okay i wanna finish up ain's scrapbooking stuff.
gonna meet her later.

much love;

2009-04-19T12:20:00.006+08:00

i spent my friday afternoon at pasir ris and i slept at punggol.

had swensens for breakfast at aiport and to walk around and waste money.

then got home and showered.

so decided to meet muzzy.

we didnt know where to go and i said this to him:

''lets be aimless people for today''.

then hazeem messaged me to ask me some shit and i called hazeem back.

then muzzy kept quiet and he went round siglap two times cause i was on the phone with hazeem.

then i was like ''why you drving in circles?, waste petrol kan''

then he said ''hahahah, i dont know where to go, so drive around ah, petrol pun dah tinggal two bar''

then i said ''since we're near east coast, we go east coast lah''

then he drove to east coast and then there was a conjestion but thats okay.

after being caught in it for like ten minutes, we left -.-

so we drove back to my area and we sat around there.

so the moral of the story is : IM AIMLESS & SO IS MUZZY!
hurrr.

but overall, he made my saturday a better saturday.
even though we had our fair share of arguments, i still think he's one of the best :)
okay thats basically how i spent my saturday.

much love;

2009-04-14T19:03:00.002+08:00

this is my bestfriend forever and ever and ever.

someone i'll always trust.

now lets see if you know my ''bestfriend''.

the answer is NO.

the ex-boyfriend/bestfriend, will always be on top of my list yo.

i miss faizal alot.

but he's busy with work and his girlfriend.

and its a valid reason cause his girlfriend is more important than me.

when i had a boyfriend, faizal wasnt my priority.

cheyyy. but it works vice versa.

but its okay fai, you're happy and im also happy :)

i approve of your relationship now haha.

used to disapprove (sorry jina) but i've come to terms with it.

sama macam you fai, you disapprove of my relationship with reme.

HAHAHAHAHAHHA.

but nevertheless, you're still in my heart (no jina, its not what you think) please.

hahahhaha.

faizal, since you're working now, do i get my swensens & roti john chicken cheese mushroom?

hahahhaha.

off day keluar :)

we go makan makan jadi gemuk sama sama eh!

love and miss you, true blue keling!

much love;

2009-03-30T18:55:00.006+08:00

im bloody tired and i just came back from school.

im struggling with art and i have 15 more boxes to do.

i have to do my homework but am bloody lazy.

i have english essay and geography worksheet.

i think im gonna die.

die of stress.

die die die.

much love;

2009-03-29T12:23:00.005+08:00

im tired bloody tired fucking tired.

i cam back at four in the morning and i woke up at 10 plus.

tsibai, fucking sleepy ah.

i have no idea what to blog except that i had alot of fun with girls :)

oh and i wanna watch confession of a shopaholic.

ain, when you freeeeeeeee?
very short post :)

much love;

2009-03-28T12:57:00.008+08:00

we were all brought to the world in pairs.

each person has a destined fate.

what if im not made for you and vice versa?

would you borrow me from my righful partner for as long as god permits or would you risk everything for fate, which we dont have a clue of.

i'll tell you which i'd pick.

i'll borrow you for as long as possible because what if tomorrow never come?

what if i never get to be wiht you again?

what if ultimately, after hoping and hoping, fate is against us?

at least i've savoured every moment i can grasp before you're taken away by some lucky girl.

but the question is,would you want the same with me?

would you fight all the odds to spend that extra second with me?

i would.

i'll leave you to your thoughs and hope you see beyond ego, pride and sense.

cause to be honest, sometimes love never made sense.

much love;

2009-03-25T21:58:00.005+08:00

When you fall in love you can't fall asleep because reality is better that your dreams.

im back at home and everything's a mess.

im very jinxed.

this whole week is bloody shitty.

and today is the most fucked up day.

much love;

2009-03-24T22:53:00.005+08:00

im not lesbian and its not her birthday or whatsoever eh.

this girl up there, her name is SITI NATASIA (unique) and she *tak tau malu*.

she wants me to blog about her so i shall blog about her.

everyone calls her: nasia.

a great girlfriend to me and alot of the other girls.

a great daughter (ni tak tau ah kan, ni assume je ah) haha.

a great girlfriend to faie (?).

basically she's great and i dont regret knowing her ah.

she's always there for me when i need her the most.

she's my shoulder to cry on when i break up with idiots haha.

nasia, sumpah eh, you mean alot to me :)

and sumpah, i really dont know what else to blog about.

and sumpah, i love you (sorry faie, share girlfriend).

yeah thats basically it.

natasia, a great girlfriend.

much love;

2009-03-23T21:03:00.006+08:00

I don't have enough middle fingers to tell you how I'm feeling.

im dead tired.
bloody tired.
super tired.
fucking tired.
more than tired actually.
i need to enjoy.

i need to STUDY! STUDY! STUDY!

i need to get going.
i need to do my art.

much love;

2009-03-19T13:01:00.007+08:00

I found a guy who listens to the lyrics.

lukman nurhakim, im bloody sorry for not sending you a letter.

im really sorry, i promise i'll write one to you today.

i promise.

im really really sorry sorry.

just now was good.

pass your time properly and control your temper, jadi *bunga*!

i love you, my dearest boy-friend for everything and i'll be by your side no matter what shit.

a letter to you lukman.

much love;

2009-03-19T12:52:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEISHA :)

wow, you're turning three years old today.

and when im twenty, you'll be six.

and when im twenty four (the age i wanna get married), you'll be ten.

then you can become my flower girl for my wedding!

ohmygod, nafisah stop dreaming.

anyway, yeah HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYGIRL!

puff love you alot okay.

just dont be a pain in the arse and i'll be okay with you.

okay, you're too young to read my blog.

so when you're big enough and when technology catches up with you, please read my blog.

you're my favourite niece!

much love;

2009-03-19T12:37:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAUFI :)

my brother from another mother and father.

im the first to wish you happy birthday in advance because i was afraid that i'd forgot your birthday later so im actually the first.

cause your bloody brother fucking forgot that today's your birthday!
means im the best.

and your present will be as promised cause i've never not failed to give you your birthday present before.

yahhh, got nothing much to say.
thanks for being there for me throughout my secondary school shit life fuck :)
you're the best boy-friend!

okay yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

much love;

2009-03-17T20:13:00.004+08:00

i hate it when people think i look very old.

i swear, the feeling is very fucked up.

even when im in school uniform, people think im not a bloody student.

true enough, i look older with make-up, but without make-up i seriously think i look like any ordinary school girl.

i dont understand why bus driver's have to ask for my ez-link in the morning when the fucking bus is packed with people.

i swear i dont understand, its so obvious that im a student because im wearing a school uniform but they bloody ask for my ez-link.

and when you take a long time to produce your fucking ez-link, they make the fucked up face.

which makes me feel like giving them a punch right in their faces.

but then again, im not a hooligan :)

and the other problem is when i go to KFC to eat.

i bloody hell produced my fucking ez-link and the bloody woman can still ask me ''is that your uniform''.

i swear, i felt like scolding her back.

kshaijsugbvhbdsvhjdsbvugdskjfhdskjhgfkdshgkuhgeughdgugbn.

todays bloody fucked up and i feel like killing people.

much love;

2009-03-16T20:22:00.003+08:00

You are the essence of my being, The realism in this reality called life. And you are the amazement known to man.

the photo up there means a thousand things you know. no you dont.

cause when the both of us get married and rae too, we gonna make it bloody grand and the wedding will be subsidised.

so fun so fun and i cannot wait to get married.

rae and rina are older than me, i'll be the first to get married!

trust me.

seriously, i cannot wait to get married and have these two girls do everything for me!

so cool, i'll feel so PRINCESSY! (?)

im lazy to blog about everything yo!

when i get married, i wanna have a grand wedding, i wanna have babies.

ohmygod, im so kental. -.-

much love;

2009-03-13T15:34:00.007+08:00

You know that your totally lost when you look into his eyes and cant find your way out.

i have to attend school on monday - thursday and its compulsory.

rubbish man! RUBBISH!

oh yeah and my parents wont be in singapore from today to sunday night = AWESOME!

and my brother's going to stay with his friends and so the house will be mine.

oh wait, the bloody maid will be around :/

but nevermind, i wont do anything stupid.

much love;

2009-03-12T17:17:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABA :)

zomg, my father is damn old, old, old, old.

and i hope my dad can will be able to see me get married hahaha.

and i want my kids to be able to see my father.

anyway, celebrated my father's birthday yesterday because my sister's working today.

i ate 4 different cakes from coffee bean.

why coffee bean? because my father loves coffee bean's cakes.

he thinks they are nicer than swensen -.-

did not give my father any present cause im bloody broke.

but my sister bought my dad a macau and she gave him $1000 and she included my name!

so that means im a freeloader.

much love;

2009-03-08T20:22:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TETEK!

you're the best buddy on earth :)

have fun have fun being older.

and i had fun at your chalet.

seriously alot of fun.

love you tek.

much love;

2009-03-07T11:52:00.003+08:00

When our friends ask me how was I patient for a whole year? I tell them it was worth the wait and I would go back years to have your gorgeous smile to brighten up my days!

you're probably wondering how come im awake so early on a saturday rightt?
i just got back from changi prison.
i went to visit lukman together with his mom.
tele-video wasnt that bad, but i cannot wait to see him face to face.
its been a few months since i last met him.

lukman, im never gonna delete this post because i want you to read this when you're released.
i'll wait for you even if its gonna take years.
i hope in the next 18months that you're gonna be there, you wont do anything dumb anymore.

and im really sorry about just now.
i really didnt know what to talk to you about.
im shocked/sad/happy/ to see you.

i dont want you to be inside.
im sad to see you like that.
im happy to know that you're not out there doing anything mischevious.

and lukman, you're taller and bigger and chubby and handsomer now huh.
all grown up and you've cut down on your irritatingness eh.
is it because bonda was around thats why you were so innocent?

haa, whatever it is, i'll still be by yourside when you need me..

and you're still cute as ever when you said this :
eh dah kurus while doing the liposuction motion thing.

please behave yourself.
i really want to see you out of trouble.

im gonna say what you said in the last 1 minute just now:
i love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love you.
love you beruk.

much love;

2009-02-22T18:29:00.004+08:00

I dont get this love game that you're playing.

its been so long since i got to use the internet.

thanks to brother's extra laptop and isa's internet.

i've got 123456789 pictures to upload.

but i've got no time.

so yeah might be uploading it when i have alot of time.

i cannot wait to meet lukman nurhakim.

i miss him alot alot alot alot.

im going to see him with his momma and there's gonna be alot of tears.

anyway, this is my metrosexual favourite boy and bestest friend and bestest cousin.

and no, he's not mat.

and whichever girl that happens to be his future girlfriend and wife, will be so lucky.

much love;

2009-02-05T22:41:00.003+08:00

If you love the person, you must first learn to accept.

had SUPERTEENS as usual.

its good cause Dr. Ernest was there and he talked alot about life.

serious talk.

had sex talks/motivational talks/wake up call and blah blah blah.

i think its worth the money.

its better than ''this way up''.

im serious, its way way better.

so i take back my words about ''they talk the same shit'' can?

i must be grateful that i was born into this world.

i must not take things for granted.

i must be contented with what i have.

i should start appreciating my parents.

i should start appreciating my siblings.

i must not have anymore negative thinking.

i must start thanking my parents for everything.

i must say ''i love you'' to them.

i must learn to accept their words.

i cannot let them down anymore.

i love you mother & father.

from the bottom of my heart.

i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe.i believe. i believe.

much love;

2009-02-04T21:57:00.004+08:00

It's not that i'm scared to tell you how i feel. It's what you're gonna say that's probably going to crush me.

was late for school cause isa dora donut and myself missed the bus.

so the theory is ''kalau dah lambat, lambatkan sekali ah, pergi breakfast pun cantik''.

so we walked to bedok interchange and went to have breakfast at Mcdonald's.

good food in the morning keeps you thinking.

reached school a 8.30 am -.-

so yeah, SUPERTEENS started justnow.

i swear this is worst than the ''this way up'' course.

its way way longer and they are very long-winded, grandmother/grandfather stories.

imagine spending 11 hours (minus 2 hours of break time) in an air conditioned room.

and you have to sit on a freaking chair with no table.

and your body aches like fuck.

and what they talk about is the same shit the ''this way up'' people talk about.

shit shitty shit fuck.

i mean its useful to a certain extent however, the hours are too long and people tend to lose their concentration after a certain period of time.

i shall remind you people again that im a:

VISUAL KINESTHETIC person.

and i feel fucked up because i cannot attend mas henna session tomorrow.

im looking forward to seeing her before her wedding, but guess i cant cause of SUPERTEENS.

so the only time i get to see her is if she drops by and watch our netball session or i'll just have to wait till her wedding day which is sunday.

much love;

2009-02-03T19:55:00.004+08:00

Its the laughter that makes it all worthwhile.

i hate tuesdays, i swear.

assembly day which means having to stayback after school, fucked up.

had talks by customs officer which was so bleagh -.-

rushed home straight to get some cash cause promised baby zee and rano a movie date.

watched INKHEART -.-

its not that bad afterall.

i watched 3/4 of the movie and i slept until it was over.

i was sleepy please, not because of my theory ''cerita tak bagus''.

anyway, im going out with family in 20 minutes time.

going to mas ayu to eat.

im depressed that rano said i gain weight back.

the other day he said i lost weight, today he said i gained back the weight.

HARDCORE HYDROXYCUT here i come!!

much love;

2009-02-02T17:41:00.003+08:00

So we fall past this story and we fall past this worry.

hakma thought me something on the internet.

its this starhub thing where i can like message him and all.

cool shitzx.

okaylah, i know some people might know about this already, but i dont know.

so just let me be happy about it for awhile can?

i know, jakun.

oh yeah, ethan can crawl already.

that means he's gonna lose all those babyfats :/

much love;

2009-01-27T22:33:00.004+08:00

I MIGHT BE FAT, BUT IM PRETTIER THAN YOU IN A THOUSAND WAYS.

and i admit that im not as smart as you.

but think again, everyone is smart in his/her own way.

everyone has his/her advantage and disadvantage.

cause no one is perfect.

talk logically.

much love;

2009-01-26T13:45:00.009+08:00

Through thick an thin, I'll always be your mate.

rina came over to my house before heading to natsy's chalet.

got lost at downtown.

both of suck big time when finding places.

and yeah, i hate taking buses.
i always get lost.
not spoilt, just dumb when it comes to taking public transport.

much love;

2009-01-26T12:54:00.005+08:00

A year older, a year more matured.

happy birthday 25TH birthday chan mei ling shikin and 27th birthday khairul.

the birthday was a blast.

alot of food which was good.

the cake was super deduper delicious.

much love;

2009-01-23T21:40:00.007+08:00

met up with natalie, rina, rae, natasha after school and went to pasir ris to eat and hang out.

isa and friends came down after school.

i only know one of his friend, if im not wrong, its azeem/azim.

and to the others who came down,

THANK YOU(:

thanks faizal, you're the best boy-friend in the whole wide world.

and girls, you are the best girlfriends anyone can ever have.

had a netball game with the girlfriends/boyfriends from 8-11.

much love;

2009-01-11T21:32:00.008+08:00

met up with wai for lunch and movie.

watched transporter.

he wanted to watch ong bak 2 but its at 7.50 pm and i have to go to school and he has to report to pasir laba camp by 7.30 for reservist tomorrow.

so we had a choice, red cliff or transporter.

who on earth like me, wanna watch red cliff right.

transporter was pretty good.

i swear to you that frank guy ( i dont know what his real name is) is fucking hot please!

his body is TO DIE FOR!

walked around town when this two small girls caught my attention.

they were doing gymnastics.

fucking cool, but i can feel the pain when they do that.

and they look like sticks.

no butt, no boobs.

sick.

much love;

2009-01-07T17:21:00.004+08:00

i dread going to school!

i swear to you, im becoming like zila, i keep wanting to fall asleep.

and i pity my malay teacher, mr hamzah, the boys are so fucking rude to him.

bloody assholes, dont think you people are jackasses.

stooop!

much love;

2009-01-02T13:37:00.005+08:00

first day of school and it was already SHITTY!

SHITTTT!

i went to school alone, ALONE okay!

HAZEEM AND ME ISNT IN THE SAME CLASS!

no actually we are, but he's in D&T and im in ART, so we kinda got separated.

and im very sad about it, because i have no friends in class.

cos firstly, the class is made up of mostly foreign students.

secondly, i dont like any of the boys, cos they make stupid noises.

thirdly, the girls are -_________________-, so forget about me making friends with them.

mr zaldy and cikgu naz told me not to bother about them, but how can i not bother about them when they are around me.

i have a netball game with my girlfriends and boyfriends.

so now, i gotta take a short nap.

much love;

2009-01-01T15:42:00.011+08:00

summary of two-thousand and eight.

Did you keep your new year's resolutions and will you make more next year?
NO! my 2008 resolution was to lose weight but im pretty sure i gained weight.

Did anyone close to you give birth?

yeah, my sister gave birth to ethan khaled mernone.

Did anyone close ot you die?
nope.

What countries did you visit?
vietnam and bangkok and incrdible ind.

What date on 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

the date which me and ain fucked reme upside down?
What was your biggest failure?
failing my 'n's.
What was you biggest achievement of the year?
i controlled my $handphone bill.
Did you suffer any illness or injury?
yeah, a broken leg :(
Whose behaviour merited celebration?

haaaaaaaaa, mine :D

Whose behaviour made you appalled and deppressed?
him her him and her and him.
Where did most of your money go?
food.clothes.shoes.bags.accesories. practically everything.

What did you get really,really,really really excited about?
haaaaaaaa, was actually excited about my N levels, but cried in the end, wished i didnt see it.
What song(s) will remind you of 2007?
BUBBLY!

Compared to this time last year,are you?
happier/sadder: sadder
thinner/fatter: fatter
richer/poorer: poorer- now the economy very bad!

What did you do you'd done less of?
studyyyy :(

Did you hate anyone now, that you didnt hate last year?
yeah, reme in particular hah.
What was the best book you read?

the memories keeper's daughter.i think (?) did i get the tittle right?

What is the album released you love?

jason mraz - we sing, we dance, we steal things.

What was your favourite film of the year?
house bunny, yes man, ah yalah!
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i went for karaoke with my blood and had a party with them, i was sixteen :)
how would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
you ask people about that.
What kept you sane?
friends.

Which celebrity/public figure you fancy the most?
TYRA!
What was the best new person you met?
erm, no one in particular. i just wished i didnt know reme at all.
Tell us valuable lesson you learned in 2008?
that my friends who've been right by myside 4 years back, are still my friends and they are closest to me.
What was the nicest thing someone said about you?
that im not fat? haha.
The most touching experience you had this year?

erm hahahah, nothing in particular.

What did you like most about yourself this year?
i speak up for my rights.
What did you hate about yourself this year?

erm, that i love you?
Favourite line from a song this year:

''it starts with my toes makes me crinkle my nose''

and i dont look forward to 2009.

bye 2008 and hello 2009.

nuch love;

2008-12-31T14:31:00.006+08:00

YAAAAAYYY!

im done with faizal's blog but i cant seem to put up a picture of him at the profile part.

nevermind faizal, i got your email and password, when i got the time, i do it for you yeah.

and im going to do isa dora donut's blog when i go to his house later.

muahhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, he and his stupid ''kenangan of HER layout''.

bleagh -.-

and wahhhhh 2009 is coming in less than 24 hours!

wah seh NOT best ah!

much love;

2008-12-30T22:07:00.003+08:00

i love faizal alot and i know he loves me too.

sucker!

woke him up and talked shit with him because i didnt get to talk to him last night cause he was talking to the love of his life.

then after that we chatted on msn as usual.

bloody idiot, ORD already, go find job ah, stay home like an idiot.

live on mother's money.

was having a stupid conversation with him and he suddenly asked me to create a blog for him.

he was bugging me and if i didnt do one for him, he'll do it himself.

and i didnt want him to merajok, so yeah i did one for him.

bleagh -.-

then i had to go out so i said, i give you bestfriend hug and kiss, you want?

knowing how irritating he is, he was like I WANT I WANT!

sickening dude.

i drew him a lips and two humans, it was deformed okay!

but its the thoughts that counts.

okay, much love;